Feeling Guilty

Now that finals have rolled around again, I've realized I'm praying more, which made me realize I had been praying less throughout the semester when I was really overloaded with work. Now I'm feeling rather guilty about it.

I used to have my ritual all worked out: I would get ready for bed, then pray before going to sleep. I liked praying at night because I had nothing else to do and could really devote my whole self and consciousness to it. These days however, with 3 a.m. bed times and 8 a.m. alarms, I just crawl pathetically into bed on autopilot and fall unconscious before I realize what I've done.

And the thing is, I'm grateful for that, too, which makes me feel even worse. There are a lot of people who would give anything to be here, at such a great school, getting less than 5 hours of sleep a night and learning from some of the best in the field. There are a lot of people who worked even harder than I did in undergrad in hopes of coming here and getting the chance to experience what I'm experiencing. It doesn't seem like it should be too hard to carve out 5 minutes in the day to say "Thank you" for everything I've been given.

But it has been hard, and I have been doing it less than I expect of myself. I've been neglectful, and now that the REALLY hard times are here, I'm realizing it. I suppose there's nothing to do except apologize, redouble my efforts to make sure it doesn't happen again, and move forward.
Still, I feel guilty.

So, to anyone who believes in God, remember to pray today! You'll be in my prayers tonight. :)

Wishing you peace,
Danai

A Question to the Religious...

How would you feel if, come Judgment Day, God decided to forgive everyone? If, rather than sending the sinners to Hell, He cleansed them of their impurities and allowed them into Heaven? Why would you feel that way?

Finally did it...

I've been playing with the idea of creating a blog for a while, normally discarding it because I just don't have the time. But, recent events have lead me to think..."Why Not?" And so, I make the jump into bloggerdom...

Here's hoping it works out for me.

:)